The month of April was sandwiched by two lovely visits from Australia – a few days with my parents at the beginning, and with a couple of friends at the end. But somehow in between and even during that time I was struggling (see part 1). Last Friday an unexpected timetable swap at El Sendero meant a later start for me, so even though it … Continue reading this state of mind 2
Cannot believe how pro I look in this shot! So far from how I feel. This picture was taken at I’s place, in his bedroom studio. He’s a professional sound guy, has worked overseas recording and mixing music. I was there with JA, JT and JM, and some new friends – they’d invited JA and me over to record some of our compositions. I had … Continue reading mad about music
So the last couple of weeks I’ve had this idea that I’m not as okay as I used to be. Nothing’s really wrong as such, but I’m just lacking motivation and energy. I didn’t use to check the clock at work before. I didn’t use to have the urge to just go home and do nothing. I didn’t use to spend this much time online. … Continue reading this state of mind
I love words. They carry so much WEIGHT. You can say so much more than you actually say. Hebrews 4:12 says For the word of God is alive and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart. You can also say so much more than you actually … Continue reading words and the Word
What burning my arm taught me: 1. It doesn’t hurt as much as you think it will. 2. But it does get worse than it looks initially. 2. EVERYBODY asks you what happened, and then every time you see them afterwards, how your arm’s doing. I’ve started telling an alternative version about trying to break up a fight between two of my suitors, because the … Continue reading what i learned from burning my arm
I’ve missed solid Bible teaching, both hearing it and teaching. It’s funny how I feel more enseñada (accustomed, at home) here in Loja city than in Gonzanamá, and I’m generally content with how things are going with my ministry (in spite of frustrations I know are a natural part of being in ministry) – but this element has been a little lacking. Out in the … Continue reading teaching the Word
… to forget … to be complacent … to slip back into old habits … It’s Lent season again, and I’d wanted to better last year’s effort of going without chocolate and alcohol, but I literally forgot, because I’d been away the whole carnaval long weekend, got back Ash Wednesday (when Lent officially begins) in the evening and rushed straight to work. And have had … Continue reading so easy
The past week or so I’ve been thinking about the time when I will go back home, flights, goodbyes etc – and with that, the niggling question of have I done enough here? Are there things I’ve left undone or waited too long to start and is it too late to begin now if I’m leaving in July? It’s not quite the same issue of … Continue reading about him
Came back to Loja from Quito the day after New Year’s, strangely heavy with melancholy. Similar sensation to coming back to an empty house after touring South America with my sister – though there was no reason that should’ve been the case. Couldn’t quite figure it out, couldn’t quite get to the heart of it, even praying over it. Then last night, an unexpected visit … Continue reading distilling melancholy
No sé qué me pasa hoy que me volví tan permisiva hasta ser hipócrita. Siempre le digo a P que no le puedo dar la contraseña si no ha consumido, pero hoy se la di. No había ninguna razón para permitir que el señor fumara, da igual que la papa hubiera estado fea, pero no insistí en que realmente no se puede. Y justo antes … Continue reading Rules and reglas
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