The past week or so I’ve been thinking about the time when I will go back home, flights, goodbyes etc – and with that, the niggling question of have I done enough here? Are there things I’ve left undone or waited too long to start and is it too late to begin now if I’m leaving in July?

It’s not quite the same issue of wanting to see the fruit of my ministry, or judging my “success” by the fruit I perceive, but it’s pretty close.

I’ve had to keep reminding myself that it’s not about me. This is something I’ve come to understand more and more during the time I’ve been here in Ecuador. It’s not about my talents or my weaknesses. It’s not about me suffering enough or me enjoying myself too much. Because God can use all of those things for His glory. It’s about Him.

Even before I left for the mission field – in fact, one of the reasons I left for the mission field – was wanting my life to be totally about Him. Wanting to serve, wanting to give of who I am. Wherever I am, I want to make sure that I give it my all each day, so that if I don’t live to see another here on this earth, I can honestly say to Him that I didn’t hold back anything from Him.

If I can bless today, why wait till tomorrow?